Peace flowing like a river

I used to write so many, many, silly things.
I wrote about boys I liked, daydreams, and bonds of friendship never-to-be-broken.

The boys' names and faces have all but faded from memory; their paper representations long ago wadded and crumpled, thrown away.
The daydreams have vanished or tarnished;
as quickly as they came, they left,
melting into the nothing that they were born of.

Never-to-be-broken friendships, inevitably, have either dissolved through the washing of years, or remained unbroken only because of an almost transparent silken thread, spanning time and space to connect two souls whose life in years past was so intertwined as to have almost been one soul inhabiting two bodies.

What is all of this, this time and love, care, and dreaming?
What does it amount to?
We breathe in and fall in love,
We breathe out and it is gone.
Where do these seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, seasons, years, and decades go?
Why, when the experience has passed, is there a shadow of it in my mind's eye?
The memories are tangible; sometimes they can be as real as this very pen-scratchy moment: snapshots in time of smells, feelings, of sunshine highlighting a ballet of dust particles, suspended animation.
Other times they are dim: I wonder who it was that lived those dreams;
What book did I read that story in?
Was it simply a philosophical scramble? a Shakespearean assay of ecclesiastical vanity?

Who knows the rhyme of this poetry called life? or the sum of its equations?
But through any residual confusion I cling to the steadfast; searching for sameness as a firm footing.
My foundation is strongest granite and will not crumble under my dancing feet.

And yes, despite the fog rolling in, despite the dreams that shadow my resolve, despite the tears dimming my heart, when the fog rolls away I will bask in the sun and I will never stop dancing.

Christine

Currently listening to: Texas Public Radio's classical music station.
Just watched: Wooster and Jeeves, and Little Rascals (various episodes of both).